Progress And Finesse!

Those were the words I kept hearing over and over again in my spirit as I spent time with God. “ Progress & Finesse!” I kept asking Myself, what does He mean?

Let’s rewind to over a month ago! Let me paint the picture for you. My job had become a place of toxic vitriol. I had become the things I despised the most. Gossip, slander, unprofessionalism, and exhaustion had become my new normal, and the Christian leader that everyone knows and looks to for guidance was suddenly gone.

My health had taken a dip for the worse and I had found myself sick, drained, and in pain from minor illnesses that had been plaguing me for years.

My finances had become so dry to the point where I was allowing it to lead and guide my judgment.

My relationship status which had been in separation mode for over a year, went into reverse and I decided to reunite with my spouse only to find myself more drained and more confused than ever.

The ministry had taken some hits when I decided to take a break and remove myself from the rat race that YouTube creates, losing subscribers like nobody’s business!

This was my new and sudden normal. After three years of pushing and leading a ministry, relocating to a new residence, and taking care of my bills and finances, I was right back to square one. I was slumming from the bottom. I was desperate for God’s guidance.

So I assume you are wondering, “!what happened?” I’ll tell you what happened. I removed God from his role as head chief in my life. I became distracted. I was distracted by shiny things and numbers. And while he was testing me and pushing me, instead of keeping him first, I tried to forge ahead in uncharted territory, where I had no covering and no clear direction.

“God are you angry with me? Is this my punishment? “

That was what I asked myself over and over again as I laid down on my bed and cried.

“I need you Kristen!”

What? God, did you just say you need me? I heard that still and subtle voice clear as day in my head. I also heard ” keep going!” And suddenly those thoughts of ” I’m a failure,” left my mind.

God told me that I was right where he needed me to be. He told me that I had to take a step back in order to fully move forward. He told me that while I thought I was failing miserably, he was behind the scenes moving things around for my good and for his perfect will.

A great bishop once said that life goes on. Despite what happens good or bad life goes on. So I took that advice and decided to get back up. Are you in a place in your life right now where God is telling you to get back up? Maybe you took a wrong turn? Maybe you made a mistake? Whatever the sin, regardless of your mistakes, God is telling you to GET BACK UP!

Fast forward to a month later and I’m back to being me. I was blessed with a new job, My health has taken a turn for the better. I’m running again, I’m living in God’s love and scripture everyday, and the ministry is progressing forward. See—progress and finesse!

This new level that God has brought me to might not be the end all be all because I want more. However, on this current level and in this season God is telling me to perfect this level before He can take me to the next. Showing him consistency, healthiness, stewardship, surrender, and obedience mixed with faith is what he is requiring!

” what is God asking you to progress and finesse in this season?”

Regardless of your answer or season, just know that you are not alone and that God is a God of Grace and Mercy!

Lord, let your Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. ~Matthew 6:10

Progress and Finesse!

Run To The Father!

Sis, this is the reality. 

Until we reach eternal Glory to be with our Heavenly Father forever and ever, we will face struggles here on this earth. As long as you are a living spirit inside a flesh body on this Planet Earth, you will face issues, fall short and sin. Even if you are ‘paper Bible saved’. The flesh is full of sin and there will always be a war between our flesh and the Spirit. This life won’t always be peaches and cream, as Jesus perfectly stated;

“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you].”

John 16:33, AMPC.

Within the book of Galatians, Apostle Paul makes a clear reference towards the battle between the flesh and the Spirit:

“For the desires of the flesh are opposed to the [Holy] Spirit, and the [desires of the] Spirit are opposed to the flesh (godless human nature); for these are antagonistic to each other [continually withstanding and in conflict with each other]…”

Galatians 5:17, AMPC.

This is why we should follow what Jesus taught; actively denying ourselves and killing our flesh daily (Luke 9:23). But, I understand that this is not easy!! Just to be transparent, I had a moment recently where the enemy attacked my mind again… I fell into a low place within my mind. I was reminded about my current situation and began wondering to myself:

  • “God, why am I still in this season?”
  • “Why haven’t things happened for me yet?”
  • “Is this how my life will remain?”
  • “It’s been years and I am still waiting to enter my promise land, but other people seem to receive their blessings much quicker…

As I was crying, I had an imagination of being ‘at the back’ and I thought to myself, “Jesus, so many people are out here in the world crying for you to help them… and I must be at the back of the que, so i’ll just wait.”

So I started questioning my identity, and feeling ‘less than’ compared to other people. So much comparison began to creep into my mind and heart. And I could sense bitterness creeping into my heart and this was a ‘fleshly’ moment for me. The Bible talks about staying away from these characteristics of the flesh, and how bitterness can defile us. The Bible also tell us to take captive of every thought and imagination which does not line up with the Word of God, as we are told in 2 Corinthians 10:5 (I have now began to actively meditate upon this scripture in order to fight the attacks which the enemy tries to throw towards my mind!). 

Quick Advice: I had to learn to be careful about what I speak when I am upset or in a ‘low season’. Word curses are real and you don’t want to speak negative words over your life – Proverbs 18:21!

Then I realised, “Rufaro, it’s the enemy trying to take a grip and a hold over your mind again… DECLARE THE WORD OF GOD.”  So, I decided to listen to a worship song and speak the Scriptures over my life. It wasn’t easy because even after reading the Scriptures, I was still crying and upset. But I was reminded that the Word of God which I spoke over my life, (the Supernatural Word of God which is sharper than any two edged sword – Hebrews 4:12!), was not in vain. 

But even though I fell into this ‘mind trap’ from the enemy, I later had to remind myself about the Glorious Gospel of Jesus Christ! Unfortunately, many Christians do not know the Gospel or they cannot articulate it. But because I knew the Gospel, I knew that I could run to my Abba Father with the issues and the pain within my soul. 

I’m sure you have heard of the quote which says:

“Religion says, ‘I messed up. My Dad is going to kill me’. The Gospel says, ‘I messed up. I need to call my Dad”

So I want to encourage you sis. Run to Abba Father! When He becomes personal to you and when you understand what Jesus has already done for you, you can approach His throne boldly and pour your heart out to him (Hebrews 4:16). So whether you have fallen into a sin which has kept you in a repetitive cycle, whether you have been struggling with your character/attitude, making the mistake of believing in the lies of the enemy, feeling ‘dirty and unworthy’ or you think that you are beyond repair… I want you to remember the Gospel!!! 

Here is a short synopsis for you, in regards to the Gospel:

  • We all came into this world as sinners. We were born into sin because of the sin of Adam and Eve – this is know as ‘Original Sin’.
  • Because of the concept of Original Sin, we became separated from God. God is a Holy God and no sin can stand in His midst.
  • But God was so loving to send His Son, Jesus Christ, to pay the penalty of our sins on the Cross. Jesus was, is and will always be the Perfect Atonement for our sins.
  • Nothing we can do can erase our sins. We need to repent of our sins and turn to Jesus. We are saved by faith through the selfless sacrifice which Jesus made for us. So, we are saved by Grace and not by our works.
  • As we receive and accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and personal Saviour, we become Sanctified, Righteous and Justified before Abba Father.
  • By being connected to Jesus and our Heavenly Father, we have access to the gift of eternal life!

In my particular situation, I had to remind myself that no matter how I am feeling, I can freely run to Abba because Jesus made this possible for me, through His sacrifice!

So what does this mean? Every time you find yourself in a low season or whenever you fall into sin, run to Jesus. He already paid the debt for our sins and mistakes. I once read a quote which said, “The devil wrote a check for my life, but it bounced”. GIRL!!! The check bounced because Jesus dealt with our debts over 2000 years ago!! Tap into this and believe it. However, when it comes to understanding Grace, it doesn’t mean we should abuse it by consciously living in sin with the excuse of “Jesus will forgive me anyway, so I can just live this way.” But we should always make the effort of praying for the Holy Spirit to fill us/re-fill us, lead us and help us to walk in the Spirit. Once we pursue the leading of the Spirit of God who dwells within us, the issues of life and the fight between our flesh and the Spirit become easier. How so? Because Jesus told us that the Holy Spirit is our helper!

“And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, and Standby), that He may remain with you forever.”

John 14:16, AMPC.

I recommend listening to ‘Promises’ by Maverick City Music. No matter how hard things may get, remind yourself –  “My hope and firm foundation… He’ll never let me down!”

Love & Peace,

Rufaro.C

Xx

Summertime Groove Post Covid 19!

So I personally love the summertime. How about you? To me, it’s more than just sipping on some lemonade, or going to the beach, it’s about bonding and spending quality time with loved ones.

Summer is a time for rejuvenation and refreshing🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

I love to just sit and meditate on a sandy beach, as my children swim and splash through the water. As we keep to our rigid schedule Monday–Friday, the summer calls for us to have fun.

Go get that vitamin D!!!

What are your summer plans post covid 19? Share your ideas with us!

Remember to practice social distancing and wear your mask when you have too!

Happy summer, love the AWP team

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Single and serving! (Know your season)

Are you waiting for Boaz? Do you feel like this is your marriage season? Before we start planning that wedding and picking out weddings gowns, let’s start with knowing our individual season.

Before you rush to that next prophetic word on marriage, think about where you are right now? Are you healed? Do you know the Lord’s voice? Are you financially stable? Are you healthy on all levels, and do you know your purpose?

There are some fundamental questions we need to explore before we can think about our kingdom spouses. This does not just apply to your personal life but it can apply to any area where we are expecting God to move. Are you ready to serve in a ministry? Are you ready to launch your business idea? Are you ready to leave that job? God will always provide provision for whatever he has purposed for you to avoid disaster.

Many of us want marriage! Apostle Paul gives us a lot of instructions on marriage. Marriage is a gift, a covenant, and something that pleases God.

However, marriage is not for everybody! Apostle Paul also talks about the options to marry. If you can remain single and enjoy being single do so and keep your focus on the Lord. But if you must marry it is better to be married than to burn with passion. Apostle Paul tells us that when we choose to marry we concern ourselves with things of this world, but when we remain single, our concerns are of God and the church and that’s perhaps the best way to be!

(Hence single and serving)

But for those of us who God has called to be wife and mother, there are some important fundamentals we must adhere to before we reach for the ring.

For the month of June we will be talking about serving while being single. We will talk all things serving God, serving others, allowing seasons for Growth, knowing our purpose and so much more.

Please study the book of 1 Corinthians!

Grab a pen and journal and begin to write out the season you believe God has you in. Are you in a season of preparing? Are you in a season of healing and deliverance? Our goal is to get you through your current season and prepared for your purpose and ultimately your kingdom marriage.

Your assignment for the week!

1. Get your journal and write out the season you believe God has you in. Along with studying 1 Corinthians!

2. Write down three questions to ask God regarding your current season.

3. What areas do you need to grow in? What have you learned from this current season in your life?

4. How can you downsize and remove mental, physical and spiritual clutter.

We will be sharing our thoughts and having a live Q&A Sunday noon time via Facebook live. We can’t wait to read what you come up with. Please make time to join us.

If you need any assistance or prayer Please email us

Kloryfaithlovehope@gmail.com

Xoxoxox AWP team 🌺

Let God Rebuild Your Life!

Hi sweet sister! I’m here to tell you that it’s not over! Whatever battles you’ve been facing, whatever trials and tribulations you’ve been up against, will not have victory over you. We serve an on time and mighty God, who’s waiting to embrace you with welcoming arms.

“The LORD waits for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion. For the LORD is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for him to help them”

~ Isaiah 30:18

I just had to start with that! I’ve been on a fast for a few days now, and the results have been amazing. We don’t fast for man or religion, we simply and carefully fast for our father. We fast to beat our flesh. We fast for God to expose and uproot the hidden things. We fast to drawer closer to Him. We fast for renewal and growth. We fast for revelation. How often do you fast?

So we fasted and petitioned God about this and he answered our prayers.

~Ezra 8:23

It seems like everywhere I look, many of us are struggling with something. Be it sickness, relationships, finances, and an overall quality of life. But why God? I know many of you wonder, why me? How is it that I serve a mighty God and yet my life sucks and has nothing to show for it?

Well, I had that same mentality not too long ago as I chronicled through my separation, all while trying to start over simultaneously. I thought those very same thoughts until God began to deal with me. First of all, He told me that in life things are going to happen. Trials and testing are going to come, because we reside on an earth where the enemy is constantly seeking to devour. God also told me that in this life as a Christian we are going to suffer. We are automatic targets for the enemy. Lastly, God told me that although these things are true, if we let Him, if we completely surrender, He can rebuild our lives. Sounds good right?

I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter, my great army, which I sent among you. “You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you. And my people shall never again be put to shame.

~Joel 2:25

So this is where it gets interesting! Once God revealed these things to me, I instantly knew I was game. However, wanting something and actually going through the process to get it are two completely different things, if you know what I mean? This process of rebuilding is not for the faint of hearts. This process will require a level of strength, energy, commitment, and faith you’ve never had before.

Still interested? When I said yes to God regarding this rebuilding process, the first thing He told me to do was trust Him and then let everything go! (everything God, even my purse collection?) Everything, plus or minus a couple of bags! ( Now I can do that Lord!) but it was uncomfortable and hard, to say the least. Letting go of a life that was so comfortable, yet fruitless, was so hard to do but I did it. After letting go, God told me to undergo deliverance. ( Say some prayers over my family bloodline, denounce any dealings with the occult, any unrepentant sins, close any open doors that would give the enemy access to my life) this process was not instant, but gradual as God slowly dealt with me and dissected the many layers of hurt, guilt, and shame the enemy and others placed over me throughout the years.

For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

~2 Corinthians 10:3-5

Still there? After saying yes, letting go, and seeking deliverance, my purpose and identity in Christ became the theme as He showed me who I was in Him. He began to place people in front of me, as He molded me and shaped me for this new life and identity. Although I still had a long road ahead of me, I began to see little changes in my life and fruit that was undeniably God.

Work the field girl! After discovering my identity and purpose in Christ, I began to work the field. He told me to go for it. Experiment with a ministry and be a disciple. So I did just that. I started doing videos, I started posting inspirational things on social media, I put together events and I wrote a book on Finding your purpose. Available on Amazon.

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Although things were still in progress and I was in a place of transition, I could feel this love and freedom in Christ I had never felt before. I still had many decisions to make at this point, after the releasing of my first book. However, I was hungry for more. As the warfare raged on around me, as friends left my side, and as things required deeper levels of faith, I knew I was almost there.

Finally, after almost three years of this ironing process, God told me the rebuilding was almost done. He told me to hold on and to let Him finish His good work and I did! And just like that, I arrived! The most important work was the inner work. We can’t receive anything from God or from others without proper healing to properly receive it. So after My internal began to Match my external it was finally time to embrace my new life in Christ. When I wake up and I feel the peace within, when I feel the peace of having my own home, a job, a passion and ministry I really love, and being a mom to two lovely children, I can’t help but think about how worth it, the process of rebuilding was.

We only get one life ladies! Your skin will never be as soft as it is today. Your hair will continue to slowly grey. Our kids will get older. Things will happen in life, good and bad. We will have different moments to help others. But regardless, life is short and precious and we will all face God the day of judgment, and be hit with that question of “ what did you do in this life?” What will you say on that day? Will the list that God has for you be long and full of many beautiful stories? Testimonies of how you helped others? Sacrifice? Taking chances? Living your full life, a life that God always wanted? Or will it be the opposite?

The choice is yours. If you let God rebuild you’re life now, and with no limits, and no fighting, I promise you, you won’t regret it! On the day of judgement, your list will be full, full of fruit and God will be smiling at all of your accomplishments and the fact that you took a chance despite all the pain and setbacks you’ve endured. You simply allowed Him to rebuild your life!

Let the rebuilding begin sis!!🌸

Embracing The Single Life!

Being single is hard! Actually it kinda sucks! Especially on days like Valentine’s Day or holidays in general. As a soon to be “ former wife,” I can honestly admit, that I’m not looking forward to being single again. Although I have been separated and living apart from my ex for some time now, the reality still hasn’t hit me, that I’m starting all over again!

Going through a separation is like losing a loved one and enduring the mourning process that follows. Although the marriage ended, my feelings and the life that we built and the family we created, had to catch up, adjust and evolve! I spent many days and nights at first crying in the shower, debating if whether or not I made the right choice or if God was angry with me because He “ hates divorce!” I spent a couple of months researching the topic of divorce and separation and whether or not it would land me in hell. There were plenty of sleepless nights where I held onto my children, as I prayed to God for strength. Sometimes that’s what we have to do. We have to dig deep in the trenches and hold onto to what we have whether it’s a pillow, a blanket, the Bible, or perhaps the arms of a parent and in my case it was my faith and my children.

When I was married, that pressure to be married with the white picket fence was off of my back. Forget the terrible fights, the fact that we rushed, and had little in common, the pressure was off and that was all that mattered. Everybody wants to be Social media happy. Every body wants to look the part through pictures and posts, but what does your union look like when the lenses are off?

I have always believed that marriage is important. I always thought the choice was ours and that as long as we did things right, God was alright with our choices. Yes God gives us free will, however I believe, just like every area in our lives he wants to help us make the best choices. We can have something that’s simply alright, something good, or something amazing! God wants us to have His best for us. Something amazing! Not perfect but a pairing that God could only bring together making the hard times a little more bearable.

When waiting for God’s best, there will be sacrifice and your patience will be tested. The enemy will send many counterfeits. You’ll be tested on how much you value yourself and what you’ll be willing to accept. But most importantly, God will test you to see if you’ll put Him first. If you’ll marry Him first. If you’ll allow healing. If you’ll allow stretching. These are all uncomfortable words that nobody wants to hear when everybody is having babies and getting married, but with the marriage rates today and just knowing how much my father knows and loves me, I’m willing to make the sacrifice. Are you?

So what can you do while you wait?

  • Grow more intimate with God
  • Allow Him to heal you from past truama
  • Allow yourself time to get over your last situation
  • Do something you’ve always wanted to do
  • Have fun
  • Journal
  • Take care of your body
  • Spend time with family and friend
  • Spend each day practicing gratitude and contentment

Healing!

The word healing is very powerful! It carries soooo much weight and in order to experience it or obtain it, we must do the work necessary to achieve it. After God called me into ministry at the age of 30, three years ago, I felt completely broken and unworthy to walk out such a call. It took every ounce of my being to engage in the process of becoming!

(Do you feel worthy of the call or assignment God has called you to do?)

Every time God would nudge on me to post a video, or to put together an event, the enemy would attack my mind with all of the wrongs I had done, and every mistake I had ever made. There were times when I wanted to give into such thoughts, but God was always there coaching me and loving on me every step of the way.

(When was there a time in your life when God became your greatest cheerleader?)

After almost two years of allowing God to heal me, mold me, sharpen me, and strengthen me, I thought I had achieved healing! I’m healed I thought to myself as I ventured into new territory “ ministry speaking!” But that was far from the truth. When we read Mark 8 and 9, we get to see Jesus tell the disciples that they couldn’t rebuke a demon possessed man because that level of demon came out only through much prayer and fasting! Wow! That scripture hit me like a ton of bricks.

Was I being tormented by something bigger than I thought? Was I in need of a fast and more deliverance.? The answers were yes! Due to years of trauma and abuse of all sorts, there was no way I would be healed over night. Not that God couldn’t do it, but then how would he get the glory? How would I learn to depend on him?

( Is there an area of your life where you could use some more deliverance or perhaps start the process of deliverance for the first time?)

If you are interested in learning about deliverance and some tools to help aid the process please email or DM our team)

(Is there and area in your life where you’ve been waiting on God to show up and deliver but it hasn’t happened yet?)

The importance of God’s timing:

Just when I thought I was good, God informed me that there was more work to be done. It took certain individuals and certain experiences to manifest in my life for God to show me more work was needed. I could either fight this process or I could be teachable and allow God to put me in a place where I could learn to completely depend on him. This process wasn’t easy and there were times when I wanted to run, however, I stayed the course and my life has been better for it ever since.

Being in a healthy space with the Lord, where we are able to trust him and give him our all is an amazing space to be in. We all have scars. We all have been hurt. But with God comes love, there’s healing, and there’s a true sense of ones identity. Don’t allow brokenness to keep you in a place of lack, and separated from God. Be vulnerable with God, be vulnerable with those around you whom you can trust. Believe in happiness again. But most importantly never forget the power of God and his ability to take a hard heart and make it softer than a flower!

( take some time to think of the different areas God could heal you in. Also, what are some ways you can practice good fruit, forgiveness, and being soft like a flower)

Scripture references

Mark 9,( demon possessed boy) Galatians 5 (fruits of the Holy Spirit), Ezekiel 36 (remove the heart of stone)

God bless!

Into The Deep!

If you could say anything to Jesus right now, right here, what would you say? What would you ask him? As I sit here writing this article, I can’t get over how far I’ve come! 2019 was a tough year, but there came with it some successes. 🌺

( Was 2019 tough for you? How’s 2020 treating you?)

As I approach 33 in April, I can’t help to think about legacy. Kristen what are your goals? What are your plans? What has God ultimately called you to do? What would your legacy look like when you are no longer here 50 years from now?

(Take some time to write down what your legacy will be 50 years from now)

Sometimes God will allow us to go through some tough obstacles to strengthen us, teach us, and mold us into the individual He wants us to be. Faith is more than just believing, it’s action based, it’s a better way of life, it’s making the best choices in life to improve your circumstances and not just for you but for your children. (All of this orchestrated and guided by God)

(What are some ways you can improve the overal quality of your life?)

Growing and stretching can be a scary thing! It often requires stretching and risk in ways we could not have ever imagined. Growing also requires jumping into the deep. Deep waters can seem scary! Deep waters can seem intimidating. However, when we go beneath the surface, we learn things, we see things, we land in uncharted territory where we learn and give birth to our greatest ideas. Are you willing to take that jump into the deep? Are you willing to fight for the life and legacy God set forth for you?

(What would jumping into the deep look like for you?)

Just jump!