By Shanora Floyd
I always pictured my life when I was younger as always smiling , laughing and just enjoying life as a whole. Not a care in the world. But unfortunately life isn’t always fun and games. I never thought I would have to overcome so many hurdles in my life and still be able to stand strong before you today. Being molested at a young age caused me to not love myself. I felt unworthy of being loved by a man or anyone at that fact. As the years went & I got older I ended in a domestic violent relationship while still carrying the hurt from when I was young . Having words thrown in my face like “
If it wasn’t me saving you , you would be nothing”. That’s coming from a person who was also abused as a child and battling depression. When I got married( not the same from the domestic relationship) but to the person who I was best friends with since childhood , it was supposed to be the happiest day of life. A girl’s dream came true. I was on top of the world to Only to have my heart shattered into little pieces. Being cheated in marriage that I thought would last a lifetime. Leaving me with a house, unpaid bills and my daughter. I thought to myself “what did I do to deserve this God ?”. “Am I really this unloved by you?”. I couldn’t understand why this was happening to a person who has a good heart.
In Romans 5 :3-5 reads “ Not only so, but we[a] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”
Even through all the hurt, tears, anger and unworthiness I went through in life God is bigger than all of it. I may not have understood back then why God was the way He was but today at this very minute as the scripture points out because of my suffering I went through it produced a woman with more hope for life than ever. God’s love conquers all my fears, anxiety and situations that I went through and will go through. With God’s help, love and patience I had overcome & gained victory in life.