Mrs. Lory, it’s not recommend that you have anymore children based on the radiologist report.
“Say that again Doc!!!”
Those were the words that rolled off my tongue as my OBGYN read medical reports from my second pregnancy.
“Yes, due to the amount of scarring from both your c-sections, it’s not recommended that you have anymore children!”
Hearing that news made me sink deep into the examination chair. It felt like I hit the bottom of a black abyss. The words kept tumbling around my brain, over and over! It’s not recommended, it’s not recommended!
“Mrs. Lory, I’m recommending preconception counseling, just in case you want more children!”
I left that office stunned and in tears. I picked up my cellphone and I told my spouse the news as the tears came flowing down my face!
“Listen, your health is the most important thing, and I know we said that if we worked things out, we would have more kids. But your life is more important!”
Hearing him say those words were both comforting, yet sad. But It wasn’t that it was impossible to try, but that it wasn’t recommended….
I had to sit alone with God on this one. I was upset! I was confused and my woman card felt as if it had been taken away. Why God? Why me?
During a night of praying God began to minister to me. After feeling what felt like an overflow of his deep love, he began to tell me some things.
“Kristen, you know that all things good and bad work together for my perfect will in your life right?”
“Yes lord I know!”
“Think about your life, think about some of the health issues you’ve been having lately. Perhaps you received some answers as to why periods are so painful?”
Suddenly, it was as if firecrackers went off in my brain. Well Ain’t that something? God used what seemed like a moment of sadness and failure to expose some underlying health concerns, which then prompted me to want to take care of my health.
Are you in a place in your life where you need to handle something?
Have you been neglecting your body? Your spouse? Your family? Your purpose?
Sometimes, God will use the bad news to expose, correct, and realign us. He chastens those he loves. It doesn’t always feel good. It doesn’t always make sense, But God’s plans are to prosper us and not to harm us.
I’ve got some huge decisions to make I tell ya! But–when it comes down to it, not only has this pushed me to want to take care of my body and seek more answers concerning my body, I’m also content, grateful, overjoyed, and in love with our God. His love is endless and his mercies are new every morning! What’s there to be upset about, after all he’s done for me? God simply told me to press on!
There are women who can’t even conceive. There are families who have lost children. I can’t and I won’t be selfish! I’m grateful that I was able to have two beautiful children! I will press on!
Where are you today? What have you been holding onto?
Are you at a turning point in your life right now? Is God telling you to press on? No matter your problem, just know that it could always be worse and that we serve a mighty God.
I have plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future~ Jeremiah 29:11
A turning point!