Those were the words I kept hearing over and over again in my spirit as I spent time with God. “ Progress & Finesse!” I kept asking Myself, what does He mean?
Let’s rewind to over a month ago! Let me paint the picture for you. My job had become a place of toxic vitriol. I had become the things I despised the most. Gossip, slander, unprofessionalism, and exhaustion had become my new normal, and the Christian leader that everyone knows and looks to for guidance was suddenly gone.
My health had taken a dip for the worse and I had found myself sick, drained, and in pain from minor illnesses that had been plaguing me for years.
My finances had become so dry to the point where I was allowing it to lead and guide my judgment.
My relationship status which had been in separation mode for over a year, went into reverse and I decided to reunite with my spouse only to find myself more drained and more confused than ever.
The ministry had taken some hits when I decided to take a break and remove myself from the rat race that YouTube creates, losing subscribers like nobody’s business!
This was my new and sudden normal. After three years of pushing and leading a ministry, relocating to a new residence, and taking care of my bills and finances, I was right back to square one. I was slumming from the bottom. I was desperate for God’s guidance.
So I assume you are wondering, “!what happened?” I’ll tell you what happened. I removed God from his role as head chief in my life. I became distracted. I was distracted by shiny things and numbers. And while he was testing me and pushing me, instead of keeping him first, I tried to forge ahead in uncharted territory, where I had no covering and no clear direction.
“God are you angry with me? Is this my punishment? “
That was what I asked myself over and over again as I laid down on my bed and cried.
“I need you Kristen!”
What? God, did you just say you need me? I heard that still and subtle voice clear as day in my head. I also heard ” keep going!” And suddenly those thoughts of ” I’m a failure,” left my mind.
God told me that I was right where he needed me to be. He told me that I had to take a step back in order to fully move forward. He told me that while I thought I was failing miserably, he was behind the scenes moving things around for my good and for his perfect will.
A great bishop once said that life goes on. Despite what happens good or bad life goes on. So I took that advice and decided to get back up. Are you in a place in your life right now where God is telling you to get back up? Maybe you took a wrong turn? Maybe you made a mistake? Whatever the sin, regardless of your mistakes, God is telling you to GET BACK UP!
Fast forward to a month later and I’m back to being me. I was blessed with a new job, My health has taken a turn for the better. I’m running again, I’m living in God’s love and scripture everyday, and the ministry is progressing forward. See—progress and finesse!
This new level that God has brought me to might not be the end all be all because I want more. However, on this current level and in this season God is telling me to perfect this level before He can take me to the next. Showing him consistency, healthiness, stewardship, surrender, and obedience mixed with faith is what he is requiring!
” what is God asking you to progress and finesse in this season?”
Regardless of your answer or season, just know that you are not alone and that God is a God of Grace and Mercy!
Lord, let your Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. ~Matthew 6:10
Progress and Finesse!